I Want To Be Better Than I Am

I want to be better than I am. Theses words have been haunting me for days. There's a splinter of perfectionist in me that keeps me from doing things, for fear that what I choose to do wont have the outcome I would want. A part of me feels that that outcome wouldn't be good enough. It wouldn't be perfect, so why do it anyway?

I'm not a crazy perfectionist, but it seems I judge my own creativity. I guess I compare my own to others and think its not good enough, which is absurd! Creativity can't be judged between two or more creators. That's why we're all different.


I feel there are so many things holding me back from what I really want to do and I know I'm the only one stopping myself from doing those things. What do I mean by these "things"? I'm talking about my sewing ideas, making crafty things, learning to play piano, any artistic expression.

I notice I waste a lot of time doing nothing, so to get out of this nonproductive rut I'm taking steps towards organization. Organizing my day and setting aside time for those things I want to get done.